SOUL MUD: Random Ramblings of my 24/7 Brain

 No.  I'm NOT ok.   You should not be ok, either.   It isn't as simple as moving forward and respecting each other and each other's opinions.   If you in anyway supported or voted Trump back into office, you are not my friend.  You voted for HATE You voted for BIGOTRY You voted for DECEIT  You voted for FACISM You voted for CRUELTY You voted for GREED You voted for EVIL You voted against DEMOCRACY  You voted against FREEDOM You voted against EQUALITY You voted against KINDNESS You voted against HUMANITY  You voted against PEACE You voted against me.  But worse... You voted against yourself.  When I look at what just happened, I am most heart broken and OUTRAGED to clearly see a fatal flaw in some humans.  It isn't just about being a good human - you know: kind, empathetic, understanding, helping, telling the truth, etc. - It's a matter of MORAL ETHICS.  You know "moral ethics...the internal rules that make you who you are ...

 April 10 th is a difficult day.  I wake with an ache in my heart.    I check in with my brother as I did yesterday and Monday, knowing he is feeling the empty and raw emotion too.    I will check in with mom later in the day to hopefully spare her the pain as long as I can, though I know it never actually leaves her and haunts her every breath.    I honor my dad by recalling my favorite things about him throughout the day as I can tolerate the memories.  For the memories are as sweet as they are bitter in knowing that they are all that I have left of him…memories. 

  I think this entry is best broken into three parts.   In the words of Buzz from Home Alone, “A, 2 and D.”   Part A:   Bathroom Portals, Part 2: Life Right Now and Part D: The Conclusion.   Part A:  Bathroom Portals   A dear friend once told me that bathrooms are portals – portals to other dimensions, realms, or alternate realities.  Fundamentally suggesting a shortcut connecting two separate points in spacetime.  Besides hearing Doc’s voice in my head from Back to the Future, ( “coming face to face with herself thirty years older would put her into shock and she'd simply pass out. Or, the encounter could create a time paradox, the result of which could cause a chain reaction that would unravel the very fabric of the space-time continuum and destroy the entire universe!” ), the idea of portals has always intrigued me.  Traveling faster than the speed of light, or possibly being able to gain insight into the truly magical universe an...